Crying over spoilt milk

In order to give me a bit of a break and give Papa some time with Mini-Me, I suggested a few days ago that Papa take over bedtime for a while. He could do the last nighttime feeding via bottle. The first night was a disaster - baby wouldn't take the bottle, couldn't be soothed, and finally she and Papa both fell asleep, exhausted, on the floor of the nursery.

Last night I wanted to use up the milk I thawed for Papa the night before, so instead of breastfeeding her I tried to give her a bottle for a mid-night feeding. She shrieked, fussed, and generally refused. I suspected either a problem with the nipple or the milk, and decided to sort it out in the morning.

Today I tasted the milk in the bottle, and almost retched. This was milk that I had frozen on 10/31, less than a month ago. The scientist in me realized I was not keeping good track of how many days the milk sat in the fridge before it got frozen, meaning I didn't know how many days it could sit in the fridge after being frozen. Plan to figure out a notation system to fix this problem. Also will stop storing milk in the fridge uncovered (in the pump - much easier than fussing with transferring it to another container at 3 in the morning).

I feel incredibly guilty for trying to feed the baby spoilt milk (twice) and concerned and upset about the possibility that *all* the milk I have stored in the freezer may be spoilt too. Until I figure out the problem, new house policy is that Papa or I taste the milk right before it goes to the baby, every time. Also I'll start tasting the milk before I start putting it in the freezer.

I've been weighing Mini-Me at a local baby resource center, since my pediatrician and I are concerned about MM's weight gain slowing down as a result of reflux. I was relieved, right after we started using the medication, that her gain had picked up to 1.5 oz/day, which is what it was during the first month of her life. So you can imagine my surprise when yesterday I discovered she had only gained 1.5 ounces in the entire past two weeks.

I'm not quite paranoid about it to keep a nursing journal yet, but I am going to pay more attention to what times I feed Mini-Me and how long we go between feedings. I hadn't noticed her nursing dropping off, but my husband commented that it seemed we were having feeding sessions less often. Also new plan is to try to feed her on both sides every time. I tried that today, but she kept falling asleep after her first course...